The Frozen Four

They froze our embryos yesterday. At this point we will never know for sure what happened, but we went from having 'unofficial, not supposed to know' information, saying we still had nine embryos to 'officially' having only four. 

Four is still a good number and we are thrilled to have this many. Four is what we had thought it would be since last Tuesday (retrieval day), and were prepared for. I feel a little silly having written a long post about taking care of nine children, but I don't at the same time. I'm not saying God was testing me, but what if he was? What if he was doing the same test to me that he did to Abraham? He knew the ultimate outcome, but he asked something of Abraham that Abraham didn't think he was capable of doing. He, although hesitant, did as God asked, and in the end God stepped in and rewarded Abraham's faithfulness and trust in Him. Just a thought. 

So far, my four little survivors are perfectly average. All four of them have received the ranking of 4BB. This isn't as good as I would have liked to see (Man! They aren't even born yet and I'm already pressuring them to get good grades!) but not as bad as it could be.

I have heard and read many stories of even poor quality embryos leading to a successful pregnancy. Currently I am researching the cryopreservation process as well as frozen transfers. I hope to have a post or two written about those subjects this week. 

I am not going to write a long, mushy post about this, because I think I have made it clear how I feel on the subject, but I do feel I need to at least mention my five new heaven's babies. Yes, I am sad I will never get to meet them here on earth, and yet, I am glad they are resting with God and their three siblings already there. I always pictured my heaven's babies as Henry's guardians. I know that the theology isn't sound, but it makes me feel good. At this point, Henry and his siblings have a whole team of guardians up there, watching out for them. 

We won't hear any more information on our embryos, the frozen transfer, etc. for at least a couple of weeks. If you are praying for us, we are asking that God keeps us calm and centered during this long waiting process. We were prepared to be through with the process entirely already, and be on the way to a pregnancy test, so this extra waiting period is slightly torturous. I would also ask that you pray for us financially. This new procedure we were not expecting to have done comes with a large price tag. It isn't as much as a fresh IVF cycle, but it is enough to cause stress and anxiety.